To My One True Love

Here I sit trying to put into words what it is I feel for you and how you make me feel. I said before that words are inadequate. I still feel that way. That no matter what it is I try to say it will not come close to what I feel.

The miracle of us seems to shine brightly in my life. Each and every day I awaken and know that no matter what happens the sun will shine and warm me so long as I think of you. The thought of you means I can escape to an endless summer day-a day of sunshine and joy that is forever beautiful with a gentle wind that sings your name to me. I hunger for your presence like a tiny spring flower who seeks the sun.

Just as I know this in the light of morning, I also know that in the evening the stars will sparkle and touch me with their grace just as you have touched me. The black velvet night embraces me with her gentle arms as I dream of flying with you and to be held by your arms alone. If only you knew the feeling I get! Like my feet will never touch the ground again.

This miracle of us is something I'm unable to fully understand and could never begin to explain. I think that analyzing it is nothing more than insanity and I only know that it makes me happy to be with you. I feel some how complete when I am near to you. I am not only close to you in body but in heart and soul. I have known such a haunting emptiness in times past. It fades to nothingness when I am with you. You have reached deep within my heart and set the world around me aglow with the warmth and light you have within you. Your smile is like a gentle breeze that lifts me above the clouds and into a fairy tale that never ends.

Knowing that you may return a tiny portion of the feelings I have for you sends a little piece of what might be called heaven to my heart. There is something about you that sets you apart from anyone else that has ever existed or ever will again. It shall never be equaled or rivaled for all eternity. You are a miracle like life itself. It overwhelms me at times to think of how incredibly wonderful you are. I am awestruck at the thought of you. It staggers me and leaves me almost breathless to merely think of how truly special you are.

I never have you more than a thought away from me. How grim my life would be without you in it. How dark and gloomy the days would become without your presence to chase away the clouds. Without you I might breathe the air and my heart might continue to beat, but there would be no joy, no light, no peace. I would pass by the most beautiful of flowers without notice and the sunrise and sunsets would hold no great brilliance for me without you to share them with. I would be broken in heart and spirit were you to be gone from my life and the ice of winter would forever grip me in its merciless razor sharp talon.

But I do not want to think those thoughts. I only wish to revel in what we share. There are times it is unclear where the fantasy ends and the reality begins. If this is fantasy then let me live there in its wondrous glow. I do not wish to live in reality if it means an existence without you.

I yearn to be close to you. Rapture feels as though it is only a mere step away. The tender flame of passion rages wildly when I think of your arms around me. The enchanting seduction captivates me with its promise of ecstasy. The fever of arduous desire grips me and drags me willingly toward blissful intoxication, its pleasure, a vortex of whirling emotion, urgently transporting us toward oneness that is a fulfilling exaltation of sensual delight. I desire you. I obsess over you. It is incredible the depth of my feelings which all come from one place.

I love you

More than you know

More than I can say

More than I should

And more each day.

I want you to always know that.

In your mind

In your heart

In your soul

With all that you are

And all that you will ever be

As I live and breathe

I think of you

I want you

I need you

You are my love

My life

My happiness

My truest desire

I love you

To My One True Love

Dawn Thebarge Hill